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Originally Posted by Asiablue
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exactly! Feelings are rarely rational, and i sense that part is being repressed due to yearnings feelings of shame over having needs.
But i don't think it's unreasonable to feel like the T is invested in you personally and not as some faceless collective. The T may be listening and caring for yearning in the usual therapisty way, and she may even deep down really care about yearning but if the client isn't "feeling" that care then it doesn't matter what the therapist thinks or feels she's doing right. She needs to find a way to connect in a way that is meaningful to Yearning.
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Yeah - this thread was speaking to me and i couldnt exactly say why, except that i could put myself in the OP's shoes of wanting more from the t.
Anyway what connected for me today in session is that i feel like i live my life as a string of lost opportunities. I just read in the nytimes yesterday that a certain neighborhood in Brooklyn is turning into a sort of French Quarter. I lived in that exact neighborhood, totally by chance, in the late 80's. Im kicking myself now for leaving. Thats just one of a million examples. But this connects to, my mother saying something to me, me following up on it, and then her never noticing that i did. The specific example that comes to mind is, i remember her complaining i used too much toilet tissue. So i stopped using it for number one. I also stopped changing panties daily to give her less to wash. I thought i was doing what she wanted. But she never acknowledged these things, never loved me more because of them. But i thought they were the golden ticket (pardon the pun). So now do i think anytime i pass up an opportunity to take better care of myself, maybe she will love me more?
I dont know how this relates to the OP, except that we are both looking for acknowledgement. Its kind of vague to me, i must admit.