Completely agree- THAT ISN'T SELFISH AT ALL!! You really have had a lot to cope with recently, and it does take time to work through the things you've had to. There will be things which trigger older feelings as well along the way, sometimes when you least expect them but that doesn't mean that you're not getting there or back to square one. Although I'm sure really painful, it is still part of the process.
Now it is REALLY good that you've taken the path towards trying to feel better maybe keep on with it, and perhaps adding to it if you think. It can be a journey and there may be obstacles in your way from time to time but pushing forwards can help you move on.
And everyone is going to need some sort of help at times so please don't hesitate to reach out for it if you need that, wherever that may come from.
Best wishes
Alison
P.S. GREAT that you've found someone special in your life!! Just remember she's NOT gone and she'll still be there. Look forward to seeing her again and plan a few things you can do with her when she's back