It doesnt matter what posessions you have, because its all material. Its nice to have comforts but at the end of the day all we really want is a companion. Maybe you are not ready for a relationship, because deep down you are thinking they are going to leave anyway so you dont expect too much from a relationship. Do you feel inferior and not deserving of a good relationship. I am sorry if this is not what you want to hear, and I dont want to make you feel worse about your past relationships. Take time for yourself, you are going through a very tough patch, but, things will get better. Best wishes.