I hate having BP. I freaking hate the fact that I want to quit my new job after only five months because I feel like an incompetent loser. I hate the fact that my freaking husband had the nerve to roll his eyes at me when I tried to explain how I felt.

My job history is blotchy, but I have always worked up until I decided to become a CMA and went to school for a year. I know my husband is tired of me being this way and is tired of me quitting jobs. I want to quit because I am afraid of being fired. I've been written up because of a med error and today I found out I didn't give the full dose of the flu to a child. I really like being a Medical Assistant, but I don't know how to reduce my margin of error (its like I can't pay attention to what I am doing). I do some things really well, but it's these mistakes that freak me out.

I have no self confidence, none, zippo. I'm not sure if I should have a letter from my pdoc explaining my medical condition..or would that be wrong? Would it make me look more like a loser?

BTW, my feelings are still hurt. I know my husband is fed up with me and I wonder how much longer he will stay. I shouldn't worry, but I do. I wish I didn't have to wake up and face another day, but I love my little family. I can't leave them behind, even if I want too.