I was in therapy for a little over seven years. 'We had a good working relationship. He was kind and listened and seemed very caring, but it ended badly and abruptly last September.

I thought I would die at first. I thought I would not be able to go on without him I thought I would get worse and end up hospitalized forever. I thought there was no hope for me.

But things haven't been too bad. In some ways things are a lot better. I don't have therapy anxiety anymore and don't have to worry about him anymore. I actually make myself get out of bed now even though I still struggle with horrible depression and severe anxiety. In some ways I feel as though I have a real life now, not depending on someone like I was. I'm depending on myself to get by and messed up as I am, I'm still around and more engaged with life than I was when I was seeing him.

I think in some ways I got so caught up in HIM and what he would think and say and how he cared about me and this relationship that we had that I wasn't living my own life. Now I am and it's very, very, very freeing. It really is.

So what I'm trying to say is you can be ok afterwards. I had a bad ending and I'm ok. I imagine you could be even better if you have a good ending.