im new to this as well. i wouldnt dare say i can relate to whatever it is that you are dealing with. but i can say that there is somebody out there. if you wanna chat im all ears. frankly i have no idea what im doing on here, but i know im not ok so i suppose i went looking for an open ear myself. after all im the only person i know who has bipolar disorder so naturally i dont relate to others and when they say they get it, i cant help but want to pull their insides out. lol if you wanna chat hit me up