i have left the program years ago. i suppose i cannot speak intelligently about staying sober, however i felt an overwhelming feeling i was joining a cult while i was in there. and i went to many meetings not just a few. Im not religious. although i felt as though jesus was being forced down my throat. when i expressed these feelings i was outcasted by some. and some lost faith in my loyalty to sobriety. my loyalty to sobriety defines my loyalty to myself! i want to stop abusing drugs. period. i dont need another addiction to fill the void.

that being said, i do appreciate the supportive nature most meetings uphold. I assume AA is meant to be taken with a grain of salt. However try telling my bipolar blood to slow down in my veins. my thoughts get the best of me.