Hi sarahlou83-

I agree with those who have posted and with healingme4me-you are not an idiot, you are human. I don't think there is a person out there who doesn't have a story of a situation that didn't go well, where we wouldn't repeat it if given the chance to do it over-but that is how we grow and learn. Unfortunately, there are people out there who seem to mostly be interested in the physical/sexual aspects of a relationship-that can and does happen whether you meet someone online or in person. But there are advantages to meeting people in person, that is, if they are not being truthful there are more opportunities to spot that. I myself have learned (and continue to learn) the hard way that people online are not always what or who they say they are. It seems to me that you were interested in finding someone to be in an intimate relationship with and found a person who was selfish and treated you with disrespect. That is an unfortunate risk that we all take when attempting to find people to be in a relationship with. I can only recommend that you be compassionate toward yourself and try to always be true to yourself and what you feel is right for you in relationships. Take things at a pace that works for you and where you feel that they have earned your trust before going to a more intimate phase.