Thanks for this important reminder, sabby. When I did my "dirty deed", I knew while I lay in the hospital how wrong and foolish I had been. I told the Lord all about it, and asked to live and promised Him I would never do it again. I have had some really horrible days since that time, but I no longer consider sui an option. I understand well the desire to escape the pain of whatever is hurting so badly, but by my own choice I will not allow myself to think that way anymore.