I have people around me that worry about me and want to help me. My sister is the best, she can understsnd me and give me good advice...she had struggled with a similar situation. But I feel completly alone and I realize I've been alone my entire life.
Because the people around me always seem and feel like strangers. Like they are not in the same reality I am, since I feel disconnected from the world. I can feel decently to like them and if I'm not seeing is face is like they never exist or aren't there.
So it is stupid but I feel like I have been living all my life alone. And as the time went by I got more and more alone.