Hi,
I understand how you feel. But let me tell you something I know is true. None of us see ourselves as we are and right now you can not really trust your self perceptions. They are very negatively distorted. It's hard to get a reality check when all you see on tv are on the outside that is what is supposed to be the ideal. A small reality check of what is real is to look at TLC Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday SAY YES TO THE DRESS. Love is not just for the average or perfect body. I've never seen seen BRIDEZILLAS but I see it's on every weekday and I'm sure it would be a reality check too and a horrified giggle
This is my first post. If anything I've written has made things worse PLUEEZE let me know. I'm here to learn. I hope today is a little better. Sometimes the best I can do is distract myself. Of course it's even better to actually just start to accomplish something...I just tell myself "I'll just do the first step, that's better than nothing." After all the first step is the hardest, but it helps me to tell myself that's all I have to do. Wish me well, if I could do this on my own I wouldn't have found this forum. Let's make this day better;D