I hate the power you have over my moods. I live for our sessions. I love how I feel in there, even when it's scary. When I feel closer to you my heart sings. This singing lasts a day or two and then is replaced by the realization we're not actually close, it's just a feeling I have. I ache to be close to another person the way I feel with you but that's so terribly scary. I'm not paying them to not leave me. Then I see you again and my heart sings. Rinse and repeat.