It's only a problem when you view it as a problem. It's only a problem when you believe the stuff taught to you in school, when you were growing up, etc.

Take for example, why is eating chicken, beef, or pork normal but a problem to vegetarians? Vegetarian view it as a problem and it goes against their belief. Same with sexual fantasies, if it goes against your morals and belief/religion, then you might view it as wrong. It's all in the head.

Ask yourself, why do you feel disgusted and sick to the stomach? Is the actual fantasy, the act of being raped, being young and molested, making you feel sick? Or the fact that you feel that these fantasy is abnormal and you feel you should not have them?

In my opinion, many people have weird sexual fantasies. In the sex category, there will always be a sadist and a masochist, the only difference is, they are set in different levels. Some maybe extremely sadist and love to perform abusive acts on the opposite sex. Some are slightly less extreme, and just love watching it happen. Some are neutral, where they can be both sadist and masochist at different times. And the rest, just love being dominated, raped, abused, degraded, etc.

In your case, you are probably in between the line of an extreme masochist to slightly extreme. I say probably because I don't know you full well, only you know yourself. If fantasies is all you have, then you are totally normal because they are only fantasies and have not been act upon. Trust me, what you have will benefit you when you find yourself in a healthy monogamous sexual relationship. Many men will die to have a girlfriend with a wild sex fantasy and that is the category you fall into in your case. Not only do you have a wild sexual fantasy, you can put your feelings into the mind of the more dominant and get aroused over that, which mean you have a gift of sexual empathy. As long as your man gets turned on from the thought of molesting you, you get even more aroused. In contrast, most men enjoy giving oral sex to their woman and they get super aroused from that, it's not something everyone can do, so just know that what you possess is quite a gift. Word of advice is, don't take things for granted. Always know when to draw the line and say no whenever you feel the situation is getting out of hand with someone you love. Although what I said might sound good, it is also something that can easily destroy a relationship and more if neither sex knows when and how to control it.

Are you a pedophile? No, pedophile are people who have sexual fantasies with young children and would perform sexual acts on young children. For you, you love the feeling of being precious and love the feeling that someone will go to the extent of violating your precious boundaries, in which it makes you feel even more precious.

I am not going to lie, I love watching rape porn and girls resisting. Not only that, but in reality, the more a girl say no, the more aroused I get. I was in a relationship with a girl that had the same fantasies as you and she loved being molested and raped, and so we get into play rape all the time. It's fun, it's different, and definitely something to kill the boredom in a relationship. I can never imagine going into a relationship again with a girl that is sexually mutual, it's freaking boring!

Now, if you had read all of those, go back to the question, what really makes you feel disgusted and sick to the stomach? Is it the actual sex fantasies itself? Or the fact that you feel you are abnormal and different from everyone else?

Whichever answer you come up with, just think of this, there are people who are considered worst. For example, bestiality, necrophiliac, pedophiles, incest, etc. And these are only CONSIDERED worst, but really, are they? No, definitely not.