Hi, it's really good that you've been able to let out how you're feeling but it does sound like you're bottling some stuff up?
Maybe they could offer you better support advise if they knew what was really going on for you, right down the line, and they may even be able to allay your worries about them being disappointed or betrayed, so maybe tell them a little bit more.
But otherwise do you have anyone who you can tell everything to instead of bottling things up, which has to make things even harder for you? Although there's still us!!
As for your meds, if they're a new combination do you think they may not have had time to "kick in" enough yet? Some can take a while. Although maybe worth checking in with your pdoc (?) then even if they've not had time to work yet they may be able to give you something to tide you over until they do.
Alison