hey canders!
well... i understand about all that and bad dreams and stuff,i had a bad dram myself. and it`s aslo natural that we want to understand and chose topics we relate to.

i post on this very topic ALTHOUGH i had a bad dream-and it was YEARS since i SI the last time in my life,
the last time yes. no more after that.

so...are you religious?
i don`t like this thing in christianity and on i would sugest that you focus on how unreasonable SI for religion and and SI on teh whole and that would maybe help you to get farther away from it?

just a sugession. maybe you thought of it yourself.
next time you will be more "smart"