I hope you find that comfort and spark of joy you need in your children. Im sorry that happened to you it must have been so tough
ride through it - pain always makes us a stronger person (and it never lasts forever, believe it or not!) just wait for that moment when it hurts that's little bit less, it might be closer than you think xxx
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Lola Olivia ~ 7/11/11 ~ my reason for breathing
Bipolar Affective Disorder type 2 - (2013)
'Borderline traits'
Dissociative episodes