Talk to your doctor if you're concerned about the dosage. I personally have never been on Abilify but I have been, and am on, other antipsychotics and they are usually started at the lowest dose.

You are definitely NOT alone out there, believe me! And although I too was ashamed of my diagnosis in the beginning, there really is no more to be ashamed of than there would be in a diagnosis of cancer or pneumonia, or any other disease. We didn't ask for this. It's not our fault. We just have to deal with it, is all.