I agree it's totally acceptable to feel the way you do/did. I feel like that often myself because my feelings are always unreciprocated.

Another thing I wanted to comment on was this whole "friend zone" thing. When a guy is actually nice to me, I actually want to be with them and probably even have sex with them. But then, when they realize that I actually want to be more than friends (especially if I actually might want to have sex with them), their reaction is somewhere between being sickened or horrified.

So, let me get this straight, I react the exact way they want me to (and b**** about how other women don't) and I'm treated even WORSE than the women who "friend zone" them. So, what the serious f—?

So, I guess the point is—guys don't be nice to a girl and then be surprised that she wants to sleep with you because that's why most of you are nice in the first place. I mean, OP, you're rare—most guys treat girls like trash unless they want to sleep with them. No wonder I never had male friends when I was younger—none of them would want to make me attracted to them by accident and none of them were attracted to me, so there was no point.