Firstly, I don't think it's right to get annoyed when a post goes without a response for a few days. It happens. I do my best to come to this section of the website weekly, but I haven't had internet access.

That being said, do you feel as though you are female? Or do you feel between both? There is a word for nearly every gender identification, as it is a spectrum. And you're certainly not alone in this. I cannot say I understand completely. I am a genderqueer person (I dress androgynous. Many people do not know if I am male or female, and I am more comfortable that way. Mentally, I am neither) so I (and this isn't for EVERY GQ person some DO feel as you're feeling) can't say I have gone through the same experiences, or pains as you have.

Have you tried looking online for support groups within the LGBTQ* community? That can be your first step to really gaining a solid foundation for yourself.