Sorry I didn't know how else to title this thread or if it's even in the right section.

Recently my therapist has used the word psychosis and put down "psychotic disorder NOS" which I don't know what it means. In the past couple months things seem worse, I have outbursts of anger, I randomly cry, people close to me I feel I love at one moment then can't stand them the next. It sounds like BPD but I don't know if the testing will show that. Also I don't feel like I know who I am or what I'm here for. I don't know what is real. I'm supposed to have an evaluation done in March.

A lawyer type guy is handling my SSI claim because based on the records he got, it was worth pursing. It stresses me out because I don't feel the government takes what is wrong with me seriously, I also don't trust the government, or people in general.

Guess my questions are will the testing really help determine what I have? And is this SSI thing worth pursuing? I know I have a poor work history because I have troubles holding down jobs and getting along with people. Thanks for reading.