Hi Direction,
I'm sorry you're feeling like you're losing your sanctuary. I've read some of your responses to people and you have a great way of writing your posts and helping people. I wish I could do the same for you in turn but I don't have your kind of skill.
I can only hope that you find your peacefulness again. Maybe you're just tired and you need a vacation, in your post you sound like you're anxiously awaiting spring break to come-that's bound to make anyone feel a little distracted.
I hope you feel better before you see your p-doc on Monday-Monday seems like a long way away. If not, you have us here to try and help.
((((((Direction))))))) -You're going to be fine, try to hang in there.