Hello

I don't have friends and i've been lonely for almost all my life, the only person i could count on which was my girlfriend. But yesterday, she simply said didn't like me anymore and was tired of being pushed away, and broke up with me. I don't know what to do anymore, she was everything I worked for, I lived for.

After some research I think I have AvPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder) which does make sense and fits on what have been happening lately, but i don't know how to deal with it. I cant open up with my family because i'm afraid they wont understand and will treat me differently. She was the only person i could trust enough to share everything in my head and now shes gone, she wont even talk to me anymore.

I haven't slept since yesterday, and my sleeping routine have been really poor lately which doesn't help me. I lay in bed and my chest hurts, my stomach feels like there are thousands of worms inside. I cant eat either.

Is there any advice for me on what i should do now? It feels like she died in front of me and I sincerely lost. And the sad part is that i still love her deeply...