I am asexual, I have always been (even before I was sexually assaulted). I just don't like sex or the idea of it. I am much more comfortable being emotionally intimate with someone, like my partner, than being physically intimate. The idea of sex does nothing for me but make me pull faces and ask "why?".

Is it impossible to have a relationship with no sex and JUST emotional intimacy? No! I am in a life partnership with someone who is also asexual (though she is a repulsed-asexual) and we are living happily together.

There is nothing wrong with being asexual. Some asexuals have a sex drive, some don't. Some masturbate, some don't. Some DO have sex under certain circumstances, some never will. And that's okay! It's not a hormonal problem, or being broken or unloveable. Sometimes it just very simply is. There is a whole spectrum of asexuality, and I think it would be good for you to read about it.