Oh I know, I know "stuff" works you never see progress until you think back and then you think well **** this stuff I'm doing and reading must be working even if it is slowly. I mean **** a year or so ago, I would go "days" without even getting up to take a shower. The fact that I do now and may only miss a day speaks volumes.

I think depression has its stages and this "nothing" is the middle way. Because I feel that the "something" that I felt in depression before was far worse than this.