Hey there! I'm sorry you're going through such a rough patch D: But let me tell you one thing that I've found comforting. Your life and your future? It's all waiting for you. And hey it may feel like it has taken a few years out of your life but you're still learning and still growing and you can still do it. It sure is a painful growth spurt but believe me when I say you aren't waiting. You're still moving and growing and living and as long as that is happening you can achieve a wonderful future. Please be more gentle with yourself you can still accomplish great things.