I do that too.. please do know that what you're doing is a precautionary measure to stop yourself from doing worse.. This too will pass, it will.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes
herethennow: This ward is a prison!
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is.
dx: recurrent MDD.