I cannot afford online dating and I wouldn't know where to begin.I kinda tried but when I would try to speak to someone I guess they see how fat and ugly I am and not respond or they do respond and then I respond back and never hear from them again.I hear people meet on Facebook but I dont how they do that.Just because something worked for one person dont mean it will work for me.People have said that things will get better and all that but all it has done is get worse.So I just ly in bed or workout 25 mins a day and lay in the rest of they day.I am trying to lose weight by working on with Focus T25 which is a Fitness program.I cannot afford to go to a mental place since I have no job.Long time ago I tried to get ssi or whatever and went to a mental health clinic and had this guy that was seemed very rude to me so I had to change docs.He was like do u touching yourself u know fondling yourself.He made me uncomfortable so I never wanted to to back to him so I asked to change but then after like 2 trys to ssi I quit.They seemed like I was scheming them to get money.