its good your going through that stuff, When I was Manic I didn't buy stuff but had stuff done ( went to get pedicure, which was no big deal) But then i went to a expensive salon next door and paid mega bucks to have my hair colored, normally I get my hair colored at a less expensive place. But man that day I was feeling good...Got my toes painted bright red and got my hair done, looked good going into the mental facility hours later LOL I was probably the best looking chick in the nut house that weekend LOL....I gotta laugh at myself to keep from crying...I still remember that first manic episode...losing my job, my apartment and my truck getting towed! ahh the things our brain does!