*sigh* I made thru the weekend. I worked Saturday and it was awesome. Just me, patients and an awesome FNP. She and I clicked right away and it made me feel proud to be an MA. I'm still in a rough spot, but I have been able to talk with my husband. He feels horrible for rolling his eyes at me and admitted that the only word he heard was "quit". We have both agreed that I really need some hard therapy and he will go with me and take me to appts if he has too.

I'm going to hush my mouth about my MI. My employers do not need to know. I'm going to be dropping to a four day work week, which I think will help. It will give me more time for help. I am also going to look for a more peaceful workplace. A slower clinic might be what I need.

These mood swings are a *****. I think I had a manic day Friday...my crash happened on the way home that night. I was all happy and a chatter box (mouth and mind were racing) and then on the way home I started to think about how screwed up I am. I'm going to get fired, blah blah blah.

Thank you so much for listening....I'm grateful. I truly am.