Hi. I can relate to how you feel. I started drinking and drugging at 12. I'd do anything and everything except I never tried needles. I've been to many rehabs but they didn't help bc I didn't want to stop the self destructive path. I'm not currently under job stress but have been in the past and needed an escape. I'm going to disagree on the post above bc moderation always led back to abuse. I have an addictive personality which can never moderate. I am on the outer fringes of AA and agree that it can be like a cult and is never a place for mental health advice. But it helped me to meet ppl who can relate to and my sponsor is bipolar. I don't have all the answers. I got clean bc my husband hated my pot smoking but now I'm a year clean and he's a functioning alcoholic. But I don't want to go back to the self bondage of addiction no matter how much he drinks and keeps booze in the house. If you don't like AA rational recovery is good they don't believe ppl have no control over addiction. And this website

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/

PM me anytime.

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