I buckled, like the fool I am.... would.

He texted me and asked me if we were still going to hang out and watch Super Bowl, I told him only as friends, he asked if not even cuddling, nope I told him. See if we could be friends. I knew it was a bad idea going in but......... for some awful weird reason I did it anyways.

He did the best thing ever, he gave me the hate.!! I was making chip dip and went to use the garbage and he jumped up and ran to the garbage, I quickly opened it and on top were two condoms wrappers!!!!!

I freaked at first, it was really hard for me to see. He told me they were ones he had in his jacket from my place and decided to clean out his jacket pocket. Ha! That's why he jumped up so fast right? He always leaves them on my side table.

It was silly for going over there in the first place because he doesn't care for me and for some stupid reason I thought I did for him.

I calmed myself down, had a beer, ate some chips, told him that was incredibly disrespectful and if it was the other way around and he had of seen the same thing at my place he would have freaked out also. He agreed and although I know he doesn't really care for me, I know it would have driven him up the wall. That is the kind of man he is.

He was a bit taken aback at being outed but after awhile he agreed it was disrespectful. Then I gave him a hug, wished him the best and left. Before I left I told him not to contact me ever again, he asked if we could at least talk on phone, I told him no. What a sad little face he had.

I don't think this is splitting, this is called normal behaviour/feelings. I'm not going to hate him like crazy or spend any energy on him. I have just realized that although he is human like me and can make mistakes, he is not appropriate for me.

End of story, blocked him and deleted contact. The only way he can get hold of me is through email and he won't. I can't imagine him spending that much energy on me to email me when he couldn't even spend the energy or brain cells to hide two condoms wrappers before I came over! Oh my.

Onwards and upwards.