Well, it's frustrating that she's like, "Yeah, people should have cared about you ten months ago, but I can't care about you now." And I get that she doesn't want to be that person for me, or her own boundaries re. caring about her clients, and I get that I'm NOT a kid anymore...but it still feels so damn unfair that I have this need that I can just never fill. I mean, I'm working on filling it myself, but that need for care is just so integral to who I am as a person I don't think it'll ever go away entirely, and I'm not sure why I would even want it to.