I think it's normal for us to "read" more into a situation than is really there. I know that I do this all the time. My husband says that I am 'way too sensitive' but, honestly, I believe that is an excuse he uses to get around his controlling, bullying-type behaviors. (I can say this with perfect clarity tho because other people - most recently, the nurses & doctors at the psych unit - have confirmed his behavior, so I know I'm not imagining it.) Yes, I am sensitive. Probably far more than the average person. And that's fine by me. I like who I am.

Does it cause problems for me? You bet.
Is it inconvenient? Yep.
Does it mess with my mind? Yes sir, it most certainly does.

But I wouldn't change a thing. For everything God gives us, there is a good side and a bad side. The bad side of our sensitivity is the 'over much' part: we put too much into what we see. As in, you are reading "exclusion" where there probably is none when your boss is in a meeting with someone else. Or when your In-laws are playing with your daughter and you see an attempt to 'make her love them more than you'. That's how it is with us many times: with us, it's "All or Nothing". But we have to remember that, most of the time, life is just mundane. Regular ol' boring stuff. There are no conspiracy theories, hidden strategies or agendas or anything else going on. Other people are just trying to get on & live their lives just as you are doing too. Hard to believe, I know, but it's true.

I would suggest you look into something called "C.B.T." (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy). This is something you can do either individually with a therapist, in a group setting or alone with a workbook. I have done it with a group and am now in the process of completing an intensive course on my own via a workbook & text. It's not easy & requires a lot of true introspection and uncomfortable insight, but it's more than worth it for the results you get.)

The next time you begin having these thoughts & feel the anxiety rising, try to get yourself to stop & take some big, deep calming breaths. Try to think thru these things - that there are no conspiracies, no hidden agendas, no one is out to get you. That what looked like one thing to you is not that at all. If you need to prove it to yourself, then do so. But do so calmly and with great control, all the while breathing slowly. (I know, easier said than done. The last time I did this, I sounded like a fat man running up & down a flight of stairs... *Pant! Gasp! Pant! Gasp!* Haha!! But do whatever it takes to alleviate your fears. And know that it is YOU who is creating those fears in the first place. And it becomes a vicious circle: you worry, you get anxious, you project fear, others sense it, you sense their worry and round & round we go.

I hope this helps you a little. I know the things that we tell ourselves in our minds can be awfully cruel sometimes. And I don't know why we do it. We wouldn't be so cruel to someone else!! Why do we do it to ourselves??! Anyway, I hope things get better for you. I really do.

Take care.