So, me and my boyfriend are taking a break because I have PTSD and BPD traits. I honestly don't know why I'm posting, part of me is sad and depressed to **** but like, I feel like this is my chance to find who I am for once and when he comes back he'll see all I can be. The girlfriend he desurves. I'm not saying I was being a terrible girlfriend but my problems (flashbacks, anxiety attacks, mood swings, half doped up on meds a few weeks before to keep the flashbacks at bay)

But I guess I also want to know who has had to take this kind of break? Where you still love each other and want to be together but can't because of their problems they need to work out for now. I've never been in a healthy relationship besides this one, part of me keeps freaking out like I'm back in my abusive relationship but I know that isn't helping. Anyways yeah I guess any good self care tips? What others have done in these situations that ended either well or alright, don't wanna feed my anixety lol. Thanks guys