I need help. I was diagnosed with bipolar 20 years ago and my last therapist also hinted that I was borderline. I think I have many of the characteristics of borderline but I have never self injured. Does that mean I'm "just" bipolar and not both? It may not seem like it matters but the label does matter to me bc it helps me process what is going on.

For instance, I am really really struggling right now... I have 2 "friends" which are really just texting buddies. They both know I am not well right now but unless i contact them they will not check on me. I would text them 50x a day if I didn't know it would drive them away so I monitor myself and limit myself to only a few. Today my goal is to not text either unless they text first. I probably can do that with one of them but the other I am so obsessed with I don't know if I can pull that off.

I really feel like I am going crazy right now