"Was it better when I was just able to stay under the covers all day?"
Noop! It wasn't better, no way, no how! Yes, you've got problems but in the short time I've known you, I know you have the resources to get through this.

You
will get through it! Just take it one thing, one step at a time, slow but sure.
Got positive energy flowing your way, my dear friend.
<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.