ok, lets paint a nice pretty picture for you, cute larger teen has abusive mother with PTSD (not why shes abusive, she just is.) HER dad abused her and so on and so forth. Well, one day sad teen meets wild inuit man, he's see some **** to. (NOOOOT describing it) the two fall madly in love and have a baby together. Enter me
Well things didn't go so well and baby gets sent to foster care for her fathers a druggy and her mother's losing her ****. Soon, abusive grammy "saves" baby. Baby grows up, young woman leaves eventually to find her dad, who's still a druggy. Each party consently bashes one another, calling the others horrible! And minipulative, and abusive. so young womans very confussed and has NO TRUST in herself or others. Granny wanted to live her life when (ok enough of this way of speaking) my mom had me, but no, no it didn't go that way, then I get rpd by my abusive ex because I couldn't tell the differance anymore or feel any of my body. Soooooooooooooooo

NOW How am I? Paying for THEIR mistakes? the reprocussions it caused, the way everyone looks at me when I tell them I'm trying, and they see me doing "nothing" how I can't even seem to have a healthy relationship without the guy needing a break! Missing school because I have no parents pretty damn much, so who do I go to when I'm sad? Even my own mother wont reply to me (she lives in another city) when I need her comfort. How did I just get chucked aside and wind up in hospitals because I want to die or make it stop, and why am I never taken seriouly?! Honestly I don't want this life anymore I want to be someone else but I can't. I can't erase my memories no matter how hard I try, I think through EVERYTHING. So yeah whine whine whine why me? But no seriously I'm angery how could my so called "family" do this to me? Make me this sad scared and scard little child on the inside no matter how hard I try to be a regular functioning adult :/ But no, its fine no appologies, no recognition that I was destroyed by those who were supposed to build me up into being a human being!

I'M SORRY I'M JUST SO MAD! And sad.......................