Hello there! I just broke up with my boyfriend last week. I am bipolar and am not on meds yet. I have hurt him over & over again (not intentionally) by being mean, and not giving him the love and attention he needs, which in turn hurt me even more (I get angry, then depressed after we talk about it. Its a vicious cycle). I decided that it was time for a 'mental health break'.

I have felt this way for quite some time, but tried to make it work b/c I still love him, but I was doing more damage. I expressed to him that I needed to get my head right & he told me that 2 people who love each other stick by each other & don't 'put each other to the side'. But at the same time, I feel like if he loves me, he would give me this time I need to help me to help our relationship.

Anyways, I too was in an abusive relationship and have a hard time reminding myself that he is not the 'bad guy'. I guess that's something that you can try to do is remind yourself of that. I feel as though you should take this as a chance to figure some things out & get stabilized (as I need to). If you guys are meant to be, you will be. Idk if this helped at all, but I sure hope so. (sorry if I fed ur anxiety in any type of way)