I'm sorry that you went through all of that, and that you're really struggling now because of it. I'm sorry that you don't have a family, or anyone who you feel you can rely on. You'll never recieve an apology or recognition from them though - unless maybe they're on their deathbed. Abusive people don't acknowledge that they're abusive, and they certainly don't apologize for their behaviour.

You can become a fully functional adult though! It'll take a bit of extra work, but you can definitely achieve it! With time, you could even achieve a "normal" life!

Do you talk with a councellor? If not, contact the hospital's mental health department and ask for an appointment. They might be able to help, any might know some other resources in the community that might be able to help you (even if it's just helping you find other women who have been abused. Sometimes having someone else around who gets it can help a lot).