I was just recently dx with bipolar NOS and bpd. My bipolar doesnt show "true mania" and I relate all of my anger, rage, and impulsiveness to bpd. My family doesnt really know about my BPD except my parents and some know about bipolar but don't really know much about it.

I was very close to my cousin. We had a very close friendship and were together a great deal of time. We were both in abusive and marriages that were not working. I got a divorce. She is still stuck with an abusive, drug addict, alcohlic, POS husband. During our relationship I never realized that I did alot of the typical BPD actions.

Our last fight, because we used to fight alot, mostly because of me, was the worst and now our relationship is over. (if you look at this site I'm referring to these examples Out of the FOG - Feelings Of Emptiness)
I baited her, was impulsive, had rage, violence, and and impulsive aggression, sabotage, and testing.

We fought and she said hurtful things and so did I. So I decided to write something very mean on facebook so everyone could see and it made her super upset. After that she would not talk to me. I've been apologizing for months now. So at Christmas her mom decided she was going to scream at me and tell me "I'm a POS and a disgrace to my family and I shouldn't be alive because I'm such a horrible person" all because of what happened between me and her daughter. I'm still upset that no one said anything to her, including my dad. So I don't want to have anything to do with my family anymore because I can't take the stress of anything else happening like that. Its been since then and I still cry about it and am still very upset about it. I still think about my cousin and how I wish she knew I had BPD so she could understand that it wasnt all my fault. I haven't started treatment yet and I've had a really screwed up life thus far. I think even if she knew she wouldn't really care... How do I get over this and how do I prevent this from happening again?