It has been awhile since I have posted here because I know it is true that no one can really help us without being involved personally. There were other issues:

I could not find work for awhile so I began drinking heavily. She tried to tell me this but I did not believe that I was wrong in drinking. I should have listened to her but I didn't.

We were together six years before this began. I have sent her romantic greeting cards once every two months and it has been a year now with no response from her. So I believe it is time for me to carry on.

I have put together a photo album of the good times we shared together over our six years and I will send it to her. Then even though I would prefer to keep trying if this photo album of good memories does not bring her back to me then nothing will so I must move on.
If there was anything I could say to her it would be this:

Dear Love,

I cannot say that I am sorry for what I have done to you
For if I was truly sorry I would have not done those things to you in the first place
All I can say to to you now is that I regret what I have done
And I would never do this to you ever again

---These words came to me while I was listening to a song by John Lennon the song is titled "Love"