well, im not sure if anybody remembers me but, im debbie. i recently just came back from a residential treatment facility at the last exit in nj before staten island.. for my behavior, depression and anxiety. it was alright, i actually really miss it there.

I actually have been back since December 21st. But i wasnt sure if i should come back on the boards because when i got out i was depressed. Today, i am severely depressed and i dont know why. Well, this week has been depressing, aunts dying and my uncle just passed away but i wasnt close with them. i also feel like i need to cut myself again which is not good, i know.

im also depressed because during my stay at my residential treatment center, i fell in love. with a girl/staff member. she is the sweetest person you would ever meet, good looking, caring and me and her really got close friendly wise. but is it bad to love at the moment with a girl??

at the end of my stay, i made friends with another girl there named, Amanda. I still in keep in touch with her. anyways, i called there and SHE answered (staff member). we talked for a little bit before she would put me on the phone with amanda. she gave me her work cell phone number to call her at anytime.

the point is for me is that i always fall in love with the wrong person. shes 23 and im 17..i dont know even if shes straight, bi or les...and she prob. would have to regardless keep in professional.

i just had to get it out to someone, sorry if i wasted your time.
life just sucks.
thanks.

deb