Thank you for your replies.

I should mention I've had already 4-5 long term relationships along with 3/4 flings/one night "stands" as it were where we went quite far. So, you see I could have slept with at least 9-10 women by now IF it weren't for this whole "I have to wait til marriage" "I want to save intercourse for the special someone." THAT is the reason why I have waited all these years, but as the years have passed and I've got older and now I'm 30, you can understand the disappointment and frustration and sadness at not having met the right woman and still remaining a technical virgin. So I am not totally sexually inexperienced, as I have obviously gone quite far sexually (handjobs, some oral, frottage etc), it's just the intercourse part which has somewhat made me freeze up and think twice and then back out, every time.

I have waited all this time because of my Christian background which has taught me not to have sex before marriage. So this is what I've taken seriously despite going to other "bases." So you see my dilemma...I'm desperate to experience intercourse just to know I CAN actually do it and to a lesser extent know what it feels like etc. but at the same time I've waited all this time, who am I going to do with for the first time?? It can't just be anyone, it would be such a waste and so the wait will continue. Can you understand my dilemma?