I know I explained what I wanted. I am mature enough to understand and know, just other people don't. It bothers me a lot. I don't want to pick anyone at a swinger convention not knowing what couple I might run into. It's not how I do it. I like to know who I am with before I do anything. It's literally, a trust I take it very seriously with. It makes me mad sometimes I am looked as a man***** or anything. It's so silly and I don't want marriage to begin with. It's not needed for me. I know from what I'm exposed to on a daily basis anywhere definitely no. I don't mind sharing, I'd rather have the solid relationship being the binding of the "marriage" than the ceremony. That's literally the simplest explanation of the type of people I am around from all the cultures in my city, from the hoods to the conservative christian rich suburbs, to the redneck country urban redneck and anyone else that lived in my city. It's all the same here. That's why I have not been lucky at all. I avoid talking bout it especially to girls I like, because of their exposure and their beliefs I respect. It's like I respect them, but they aren't allowed to respect me like what did I do. Sorry it's been rough today physically, I'm feeling sick and groggy.