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Originally Posted by lynn808
Hope you doing well today hun.
Guess you really do have to figure out if you really want this user in your life at all...or if you can tolerate the non-caring and non-supportive person...I do hope that you will find a good friend who will be there for you always......hugs and please know there are good people out there...take care and be strong hun!!!
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Thanks for the support, I really need it. I don't need that user in my life.
He is still blocked on my phone, first time I have gone this long. In the past I have blocked him and then quickly unblocked him an hour or two later. It's a little like going through withdrawal but I can do it. I know that the longer I go without contact the easier it will be and maybe at that point I'll be able to see the bigger picture.
I just felt ill this morning about yesterday. Why I put myself in that degrading position just mystifies me. Still mortified and embarrassed.
But I did do one thing, I contacted a mental health provider for an appointment. Currently I am med and therapist free. I have not seen anyone. for 15 years My only resistance has been that I know they will suggest medication and I don't want to take it. So we will see where that goes.
On an upside the sun is out, I'm going to the gym and then go buy a bunch of healthy food.