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Originally Posted by lazydog
Thanks for the support, I really need it. I don't need that user in my life.
He is still blocked on my phone, first time I have gone this long. In the past I have blocked him and then quickly unblocked him an hour or two later. It's a little like going through withdrawal but I can do it. I know that the longer I go without contact the easier it will be and maybe at that point I'll be able to see the bigger picture.
I just felt ill this morning about yesterday. Why I put myself in that degrading position just mystifies me. Still mortified and embarrassed.
But I did do one thing, I contacted a mental health provider for an appointment. Currently I am med and therapist free. I have not seen anyone. for 15 years My only resistance has been that I know they will suggest medication and I don't want to take it. So we will see where that goes.
On an upside the sun is out, I'm going to the gym and then go buy a bunch of healthy food.
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Good job on keeping him blocked this long. That is great that you contacted someone in mental health. Remember that just because they suggest medication does not mean you have to take it. Medication is a personal choice, some people like me need it, others can go without. I would see what a therapist can help you with before trying meds.