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Originally Posted by Rapunzel
... One of the functions of cutting is that it sends a loud and clear message that this is a person who has a lot of pain and problems and doesn't have what she needs to be able to deal with those problems. The normal response from someone who loves and cares about you is to want to help you deal with those problems, because not dealing with them will mean that you keep being this hurt, and you don't have to. There is support for dealing with the problems...
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And therein lies to deeper problem to my cutting. I know I have problems. Everyone has problems. i don't think that I am alone in my struggles. Knowing that does not make me feel any better about it, though. If anything, knowing that other people feel the same way makes me feel more hopeless to finding a solution.
I realize that cutting is just a symptom of me trying to cope. I should treat the reason for it. However, dealing with my other issues are topics in and of themselves. I have two issues of mine on this site in other sections, actually. One on
BPD, and another on
Sexual Identity. I think I made mention of one of them, before.
The problem is that for the most part I don't like the options I have for how I am supposed to 'deal with it'. Or that their really isn't an option, at all. So in the meantime, cutting is what works... at least for a while. I've been good for about a week now since the last time I have cut, and it's the method that lets me get by in the absence of a real solution. As far as I can tell, I don't have any answers to my real issues, and my misery isn't going to go away until there is one.
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Originally Posted by Rapunzel
... your part is to accept that they feel the way that they do also, and there is still the problem of all the problems that are causing you to feel like hurting yourself. If you have problems like that, you do need some help with them. Right? Your family is going to want you to have help dealing with your problems, because when you care about someone it just isn't okay that they hurt that much and aren't able to deal with it...
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I understand they care about me, and it's more my friends that I am around more so than my family. I don't see my family very often as I moved to a different city. I would rather not ever feel like cutting. I would rather just be ok and never be pushed so far to need to. However, I just can't find answers. I don't know what to do about any of my situations. I AM looking for solutions, I AM trying to be happy. It's just not happening. This isn't the first time I have reached out. But it is the
Nth time I have not found an answer. I just need for people to let me be with what works for me to get by until I find that answer. If I can't achieve what I want to be happy, I would at least want people to let me cope my own way.