I just can't get myself to move past the transference I have for my old therapist when he moved away almost 2 years ago. It hurts a lot and I don't feel like anybody understands. All I want to do is talk to him or see him again but I can't and I won't ever be able to. I want to stop therapy with the T I have now but I know if I do it won't help me. I feel like no matter who I go to for therapy I won't like it. I need help with this and so many other things in my life but I don't feel like anyone can help me besides my old T who moved away. I have tried doing therapy with other T's but it's not the same and it won't ever be. I can't even tell any T that I see how I feel because I am so worried that it will be like I'm saying I don't even want to give them chance besides my old T. I just feel so stuck and lost without him and I can't moved on but I know that I won't ever be able to have my old T back either even though I REALLY want to.