today has been completely horrible!! im depressed and stress eating! and im moody and sad and just wanna cry. I cant keep myself awake or motivated really. I did tell my T I was safe today. I feel urge to si again. im not so much anxious but just stressed. id like to escape. I want a flipping break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!