Dear T,

So.....I'm still testing you. I know I am and I believe it's unconscious. So why am I not feeling safe enough? Why am I having to force myself to trust you? I'm on the fence again re: if it's all up to me to make this work or if maybe you're struggling on your end. But I'm thinking tonight maybe I can't keep trying to hold this together, T.... Maybe I am not the only one impacting the therapeutic relationship or whatever the **** it is.....you know, if you can't help me, I'd much rather you just say so! It is NOT all my fault!